Monday, September 28, 2009

City Lights

Standing on the hill looking out over the city lights stretching to the east and to the west and the south. No, I was sitting and I was drinking a beer and people were coming and going before me, opening and closing the sliding glass door and there was some commotion about getting the amplifiers plugged into a different socket so the band could play without blowing the breaker. I was sitting and the city lights stretched out below me down the hill out across a thousand intersecting biways and hiways and dark spots where there were no lights and so many millions of people doing their thing on a wild Saturday night. Some sleeping, some going to bed early with thoughts of Saturday night possibilities forgone, some revving up to a let-go and blow give-it-all-out Saturday night to blow the steam off the work week and settle into the monotony just around the corner. But nobody thinks of Monday morning on Saturday night, no, they reserve that worry for Sunday. Saturday night is free and the heathens roam the night, straight, upright people who just gotta get it all out once or twice a week or they might blow their top on Wednesday at three in the afternoon. I was sitting, drinking a beer, watching family and family friends I don't know run about and dance and retrieve drinks from the bar downstairs. I was somewhere in between the wild Saturday night and the early quit, the Saturday night resignation hopeful for a calm and whole Sunday sliding easy into the week. I was just sitting, looking out across the city with downtown in the distance and the black space of the river breaking east and west. Looking out across eternity and the castles of man's building and thinking about a girl and what she might be doing on a cooling Saturday night sliding now slowly into Fall. I imagined her smile and knew I could feel her out there somewhere. Out over the hills, in the suburbs to the west? Or was she already downtown laughing and enjoying the lights and flash and open possibility of the night? I knew I wasn't with her, no, I was just sitting drinking my beer and thinking but the stretching expanse of the city before me, endless sprawling out into the dark where I couldn't see the lights anymore, indicated her simple individual existence. A million people below me, mad, unique, interesting characters, all blended into one, a general statement of life now in this modern way, but her, she stood as a beacon of light, alone, indicating some great energy and the rising vibration of possibility and excitement and beauty.

Saturday, September 26, 2009


I will have to save this as something i will never find. can i just type these words for a quick on? put them down when the energy rolls. dont be foiled by the simple trap plan of the world first presented to you. everyone looks at that breaking age in life, 16 or 19 or 22, they break away from what they know (hopefully for soul's growth reasons) but so easily slip into a reflection of the same tho with starry atributes. i have seen those lights, that simple glow out over hollywood the surging call of Babylon and all that infrastructure running that droning vibration intto the empty desert at its borders and beyond. that never slow vibration of the big city that just keeps churning. the sun rises every morning and we get in our cars and drive to work. the realest God filling work in the world is the home. the family, at the married paired, is the foundation of his kingdom on Earth. i see now a new version of my same old dream, always growing, always going along, divided and synthesizing, the epic endless outpouring. by my deeds i attest the extension of His Being, love. love in Action is the age. are we the children of the Age of God coming? yes we are. we are the very start of a new outpouring. maybe not the start for sure, I can feel the ancestry and the passing forth of He, but now we roll into anew. i know the new because I was, am being, transformed absolutely from the inside out. I love rolling on the keyboard. trying to get it down. what? the final life and the coming into being of great. yes the great that is to come. that is here.

I attest to experience and the coming into evermore light. illumination. from God within outward, literally becoming as Light, extending Love through the Universe. the trinity is finally One. i am thankful to be God, by His Creation, and not to be my crazy self. God created me. Now i render service to God through service in the kingdom by the extension of love. yes. i do nothing but I AM He. You see I am He and then i can just be with God. He loves creation and now I am creating these words for God. I just roll on the writer and try to slip a tongue. i try to slip the roll see the beat turned up and now it is a flow but there isnt much there. and i DO want to tell you secrets. and I do want to confuse you with the spirit forevermore. I will see you now as Spirit and I as Spirit and we All as flowing spirit. thank you that these words (which are what?) can be struck and put down with such ease. will ever I ever have the discipline to Write in time to the rhythm of the story as it fows out from my heart, and to really get it down so it is genuine?

i will have to say that this is the last note.
this is the end of the road of words leading unto nothing.
i rolled that hill and saw beyond the veil, man i really dug the future.
what do you say? i say i saw the future bright twice now in each moment.
spaces, people run from work and
drive to duldrooms in the city.
latch key kids lost on some city bus trying to get somewhere, home.
better, than, the Jeffersons.
beyond Our means we live out of control, just to show that we might be making it.
since, that is yes, yes it is.

Saturday, September 12, 2009


I magnetize the world out and in with my Heart.
I am in the Heart beat and center of all things.
I see the world surrounding me, I create from the center outward.
I create from outward back to the center.
I create in the flow with love and thus create as God creates and the whole world loves my creation.
The whole world is in constant supreme devotion to God and His ever expanding creation.
The universe expands because YOU create.
Fill the void in tapestry of Light and Love, create, radiate from the Heart outward, inward, and magnetize the whole world.
Be the center in the center of all things.
Be the periphery at the edge of creation expanding the horizon, creating with Love.
Your heart is a magnet.
Radiate Love, draw Love back.
This is law, practice, devotion, hope, and supreme example of OUR creative potential.
Be God in the Heart center, expand your creation in Love, by Love, for Devotion.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Again, so Soon...

Thoughts on life stretching out before me. What to do in a world of possibility and the whole world stretching out before me like a simple path? With each breath I step and make the path as I know it, need it, desire it to be. With each step I take a breath and hope the step is the best I can take. There arises in a man a sense of duty, not to do what must be done, but to do what is possible, to do the absolute best. I see now, 25 and looking out on my life, that what is possible is truly unbelievable and when you bring the two together it is clear that what MUST be done is what is unbelievable...and then there is that weight that weighs the shoulders down a bit when I realize that what I am going to do is IMPOSSIBLE. And then the weight is lifted when I remember that nothing is impossible with God and Christ and Love on earth.