but right now, in the midst of the happening, I just can't seem to figure out what its all about.
what is this business of life? how can I possibly be successful if I don't even know how to aim, nay, if I don't even know what to aim at?
oh, to be lost is a blessing, and to be found, I guess I just want to be found and secure for once and for all.
I desire not to be bound by sin. But also I do not desire the gilded cage of feigned saintliness. oh no!
but it is nice to know that if it all ended I sure would be grateful and glad that it ever happened!